When life is just....

      In the light of day, what does your life look like.  Is it everything you dreamed it would be? Is everyday wonderful? Are you June Clever? Are your children perfect all the time?  If your life looks like mine then probably not.  Life sometimes can just swallow you whole, eat you alive and then you have nothing left.  But on the outside, you have all these blessings.  Some daily, some moment by moment, but they are all Gods, he gave them to you.  But you can not grasp it, you just feel, just.... There is a lack of something that is really there.  But where is it?  How in the world did it become invisible? How in the world am I in this place?  How can I know Gods there but not feel him.  How can I see all He does daily but not here him.  How did I get here?  Do you have these moments, days, weeks or a month?  Where you are here?  I have a secret, I am. I have been here and seeking God, I see Him, and hear Him, but sometimes I can not feel Him.  His Peace, His presence, His arms around me, His reassurance.  My list is long, my heart has ached and with much prayer and much time with Him.  He met me in the most wonderful place.  Running, I know you are like really? running?  Yes, because I find it easier to focus on God and talk to Him, then worry about my pace, the pain in my legs or shortness of breathe.  So yesterday while seeking Him and asking again, why and help.  He said sssshhhh, and there was a complete and totally quietness and calmness in my soul.  I love scripture and when I find comfort in His words, they are sweet, comforting and loving.  I cling to them when I find myself in a self induced blah place.  Even though I may not know where it is in the Bible, I know it in my heart and I can say it to myself. 
      So in the light of my day I found God right where He was supposed to be, but I some how was not where I was supposed to be.  What do you do, when you find yourself like I found myself?  Do you seek God more or search else where first.  In the Light of Day what will you do? Where will you turn? Who will you seek?  How long will it take for you to seek Him?