Speechless...

Last night, I just was blown away in amazement.  Not of nothing new because it is something that happens pretty regularly.  When you pray be prepared to know who God is.  He is wonderfully amazing, humbling and loving.  Just to know He hears you all the time even when you don't think He is, He IS.
      Lets go back two weeks, on a Wednesday, I was searching Christain book stores and regular ones, for a Bible study I could do on my own. Because, I thought in this season of life I was not going to go to a group Bible Study.  Well, none stood out, none said pick me.... So what do I do? Pray, pray for wisdom and guidance for which one I need to do.  Fast foreword to Tuesday, I have a feeling, I need to go to the Bible Study starting the next day.  I of coarse like Gideon like to challenge God, (really, I am it's God why test Him).  So I Wednesday (one week ago).  I tell God, well if I am supposed to go to Bible study this morning.  I need to have completed school with my two youngest by 9:15am so I can shower and get my oldest stuff together.  We finished at 9am.  Okay we are going to bible study.  That evening when I was doing my homework, and praying I asked God again what kind of Bible study do I need to do on my own, what do I need. "You need Jesus".  Is what I felt in my heart.  I knew exactly what He was talking about, I had seen a Bible study by one of my favorite teachers.   Monday this week I bought it.  Last night when I was doing my first night of homework for my group Bible study, then finished with my Jesus, both ended the same.  Asking essentially the same question!  How does He do that! I was well, in tears.  How great is God! How amazing, all knowing, perfect is He.  In the light of Day, He never stops amazing me.

When life is just....

      In the light of day, what does your life look like.  Is it everything you dreamed it would be? Is everyday wonderful? Are you June Clever? Are your children perfect all the time?  If your life looks like mine then probably not.  Life sometimes can just swallow you whole, eat you alive and then you have nothing left.  But on the outside, you have all these blessings.  Some daily, some moment by moment, but they are all Gods, he gave them to you.  But you can not grasp it, you just feel, just.... There is a lack of something that is really there.  But where is it?  How in the world did it become invisible? How in the world am I in this place?  How can I know Gods there but not feel him.  How can I see all He does daily but not here him.  How did I get here?  Do you have these moments, days, weeks or a month?  Where you are here?  I have a secret, I am. I have been here and seeking God, I see Him, and hear Him, but sometimes I can not feel Him.  His Peace, His presence, His arms around me, His reassurance.  My list is long, my heart has ached and with much prayer and much time with Him.  He met me in the most wonderful place.  Running, I know you are like really? running?  Yes, because I find it easier to focus on God and talk to Him, then worry about my pace, the pain in my legs or shortness of breathe.  So yesterday while seeking Him and asking again, why and help.  He said sssshhhh, and there was a complete and totally quietness and calmness in my soul.  I love scripture and when I find comfort in His words, they are sweet, comforting and loving.  I cling to them when I find myself in a self induced blah place.  Even though I may not know where it is in the Bible, I know it in my heart and I can say it to myself. 
      So in the light of my day I found God right where He was supposed to be, but I some how was not where I was supposed to be.  What do you do, when you find yourself like I found myself?  Do you seek God more or search else where first.  In the Light of Day what will you do? Where will you turn? Who will you seek?  How long will it take for you to seek Him?

Just a thought

      In the light of day, what if I said, well I believe in God and what he has done for me, but I am not giving anything up.  In fact I might just twist it so it can appear Christian and I therefore can feel better about the whole thing.  After all there are all these rules I have to follow.   I really don't want to follow these rules or guide lines.  God just needs to fit my life.  I am certainly not going to follow His.  Wait?!!? What?!?! Are you Serious?!?! 
         So this is what I said....I believe in God, but just enough to get by.  I really don't want to die to self and live a new life.  In fact I am going to put God in a box, and pull him off when I need a little help.  Really He is a pain in my butt, but I don't want to be titled something other than a christian something that I really am....
        Why in the world title yourself something you are not?  Why do you want to keep God in His God shaped box and never let him guide you in life?   Do you know that although God is abounding in love and is full of grace and mercy, He is also full of judgement.   If you read the old testament, even just the Major Prophets God, tells you HE tried to get them (you or me) to listen.  We chose not too.  We chose HIS just wrath.  
        I want to take a look at one of the wisest, richest men in history.  God said ask me for anything and it is yours.  He asked for only wisdom, God gave him much more.  His name was Solomon, David's son, who replaced him. Solomon had one little problem, he loved his wives....Yep more than one, yep all believed something different. So he but up alters to different Gods and led, his wives, family and people astray.  But he loved God.... Well that is the old testament and to be far for those who are "new" testaments believers, here is a new testament passage.  "Not everyone who says to me, 'Lord, Lord,' will enter the kingdom of heaven, but only he who does the will of my Father in heaven.  Many will say to me on that day, 'Lord, Lord, did we not prophesy in your name, and in your name drive out demons and perform many miracles?'  Then I will tell them plainly, 'I never knew you.  Away from me, you evildoers!'  Matthew 7: 21-23
              You see it is easy to say you believe in God, and Jesus.  But are you sold out to them?  Does your life reflect there life or their instructions.  Enough with the excuses.  We know them all the world is all around us, and if it is okay for so and so then..... Well, if they jumped off the bridge would you?  Yes, there are many things around you that look fun are fun, would be fun.  Are they really fun? Bring you a false peace of mind.  Is it really bringing you peace of mind?  After all we are only human. Yes you are, there is someone who knows that already.  Stop! It is my choice as well as yours.  What will you choose today? 
              One of the most idiotic things I have ever heard and have watch destroy generations of people is "Well kids are going to do what kids are going to do."  Like all of the sudden grown ups are afraid of their own children.  Get over it, you are going to do what you are allowed to do.  If you let them do x don't be surprised when y happens.  If you say you are Christian but don't do Christian things, don't be surprised when Jesus says to you He does not know you.   So in the Light of Day, what will you do?